I lost half a pound! Good I guess, it's losing and not gaining, but I wish it was a whole pound.

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This week is going to be hard because this town has an annual event, a carnival and parades and all kinds of stuff. And food vendors. Delicious, sinful, outrageously priced food. I don't know how i'm going to stand it. I'm going to have to purge if I eat otherwise all those empty calories are going to be absorbed and that's a lot of calories.

I've been sereously thinking about smoking meth at the beginning of November to compensate. It's not even for the high, but because I know it'll make me not eat for at least one day, probably two. And if it's really good, maybe even three. It's been almost 10 months since i've done it though, and I don't want to do it over something stupid like weight loss. But I keep thinking about it. Imagining how much weight i'd lose, and it would also shrink my stomach and then I would be able to eat less.

I get my Adderall at the beginning of the month, and that makes me not hungry too though, so maybe I should just stick to that. It's not the same though. With meth you can't eat, for days.

I went grocery shopping with my mom last night and got lots of healthy low-cal foods. Low-fat yogurts and string cheese will be good for calcium.

I fucked up today already. I had four mini powdered donuts and a mini tootsie roll. Later when I get off work i'm going to have a yogurt or a string cheese and that's it. I want to weigh less tomorrow!