I have to do better. Not doing better is not an option. At the beginning of November i'm going to begin a diet plan, including fasts. I'm wondering if I should start out with a one-day fast or two-day. I'm also going to get a gym membership in November.

Gods, i'm scared to weigh myself tomorrow. If I haven't lost any weight I shouldn't eat at all tomorrow. I shouldn't anyway. I need to learn to like the feeling of hunger. I used to. I can get there again.

But anyway, starting in November, along with the fasts (is one a week too drastic, not if it's just one day?) I want to severely restrict my calorie intake. I got some crystal light so that should be great for fast days too. No more than 500 calories a day sounds good.